Goodbye Dear Friend

Sleep overs, mah jong, gossip, song and trust. We used to spend so many weekends together and provide cover stories for. You were my sister. But we grew up and grew apart. We finally went to the same school and yet we grew apart. I think we both knew we were different from each other and couldn't have had the same circles but we saw something else in each other that made us friends, sisters. We left for college and all we had were words in virtual air. You were my sister and we grew apart. We finally saw each other again and everything was the same. We were still the children we once were. You were my sister and we grew apart. I'm not good with words. That was you. You were also the smart one. You were also the pretty one. You were my sister. Now I can't believe you're gone. It doesn't seem real. You were my best friend and we grew apart. I'm sorry.

Fighting to be heard

I don't think anyone would blame me for working really hard at work to try to prove to my bosses that I deserve a promotion. I know just as much as everyone else. The only reason I might not know something is because I haven't had the privilege of getting the SOP before everyone else. And yet, I still sense a lack of trust, well...really from one person. He's not even around and yet I still get calls for updates and instructions. Dude! I know! Calm down! I know he worries and just wants to make sure things get done. I feel the same but I don't call in on my days off. I'm just looking for alittle trust. I think I've proven that I deserve some of that.

so she asks

Grandma told me today that I need a boyfriend so she can be happy. No pressure or anything. Like what she asks is easy to do. I'm not saying that she isn't right in some way. I haven't been "out there" in a long time. I'm making a lot of excuses for why I don't get out and some of them are completely valid. But I have a question first. "How do you do it?" It's a change in thinking and a new game; one, I'm not completely ready or understand.  

New York Pics

Pictures from my trip to New York here.

Just Coasting

There has been some changes at work. I'm working swing shift now and have more responsibility. I'm happy to know that my bosses trust me with this work and to know that I'm doing well in this job. But the thing is that I'm not doing anything else with my life. There isn't a whole lot I can do during the day before work. Sure, errands are easier to run since there are less people crowding the market or bank. But what else am I going to do? "But you have the weekend..."I really don't. Responsibilities at home make it so that I really can't do much. I miss my friends. I miss my old life even though I didn't have much then, it was better than this.

Switching over

Since I will be losing my Geocities website soon, I'll switch my blog over to Blogger and well, my pics are already on Facebook and Flicker anyway. I already have this account. I might as well use it.

Apartment Dinner

My attempt at making potstickers. My friends here at in the apartment complex has started this weekend dinner thing where each one of us picks a weekend to cook for everyone else. I volunteered for this weekend but unlike the previous dinners, I didn't make a big chunk of animal; I made potstickers and rice cakes both of which I've never made by myself before. The potsticker came out okay but the rice cakes were weird. Some of them were uncooked in the center and it tasted a bit too flour-y. I think I didn't drain them well enough. Stir fried with chicken and bean sprouts with chicken stock to cover the flour taste, it wasn't half bad. Too bad I don't have any chili sauce or it would have been so much better. And yes! I made the potstickers...well, the filling anyway and wrapped and pinched the pleats. Nothing frozen here!

Soup!

I found the recipe for Zuppa Toscana soup online. Just like at the Olive Garden! I love this soup and decided to attempt to make it on my own. I used too much red pepper flakes so the soup turned out a bit spicier than real thing but I liked it anyway. I should have peeled the potatoes before I put it into the pot so the soup was a bit "crunchy" but hey, fiber is good for you. With some fresh "garden herb" bread, I had a very hearty meal. Considering how much I made, I'll have soup for a week.

Elisa cooks for herself

Look, look, I can cook! I made breaded chicken breast, mashed potatoes, and mixed veggies. This is pretty much the standard meal for me. Maybe now Grandma can stop worrying about me not eating enough.

Chinese New Year in SLO

My friend, Cynthia, decided to attempt a Chinese New Year Feast this year and asked me to co-host. I bought the chicken and roast duck. Together we made the rice cake with pork, sautee Chinese vegetables, lettuce wrap with a chicken, celery, and bean sprout filling, tomato-egg-chicken side for the rice, onion pancakes, and red bean tapicoa for dessert. We managed to serve 12 people in my little apartment and paper plates and plastic utensils meant no dishes to wash.