Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Sleep overs, mah jong, gossip, song and trust. We used to spend so many weekends together and provide cover stories for. You were my sister. But we grew up and grew apart. We finally went to the same school and yet we grew apart. I think we both knew we were different from each other and couldn't have had the same circles but we saw something else in each other that made us friends, sisters. We left for college and all we had were words in virtual air. You were my sister and we grew apart. We finally saw each other again and everything was the same. We were still the children we once were. You were my sister and we grew apart. I'm not good with words. That was you. You were also the smart one. You were also the pretty one. You were my sister. Now I can't believe you're gone. It doesn't seem real. You were my best friend and we grew apart. I'm sorry.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
I don't think anyone would blame me for working really hard at work to try to prove to my bosses that I deserve a promotion. I know just as much as everyone else. The only reason I might not know something is because I haven't had the privilege of getting the SOP before everyone else. And yet, I still sense a lack of trust, well...really from one person. He's not even around and yet I still get calls for updates and instructions. Dude! I know! Calm down! I know he worries and just wants to make sure things get done. I feel the same but I don't call in on my days off. I'm just looking for alittle trust. I think I've proven that I deserve some of that.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Grandma told me today that I need a boyfriend so she can be happy. No pressure or anything. Like what she asks is easy to do. I'm not saying that she isn't right in some way. I haven't been "out there" in a long time. I'm making a lot of excuses for why I don't get out and some of them are completely valid. But I have a question first. "How do you do it?" It's a change in thinking and a new game; one, I'm not completely ready or understand.
Monday, May 04, 2009
Saturday, May 02, 2009
There has been some changes at work. I'm working swing shift now and have more responsibility. I'm happy to know that my bosses trust me with this work and to know that I'm doing well in this job. But the thing is that I'm not doing anything else with my life. There isn't a whole lot I can do during the day before work. Sure, errands are easier to run since there are less people crowding the market or bank. But what else am I going to do? "But you have the weekend..."I really don't. Responsibilities at home make it so that I really can't do much. I miss my friends. I miss my old life even though I didn't have much then, it was better than this.